Dealbreaker

I found that record you’d been looking for yesterday
昨天我找到你之前在找的那張唱片
The one I’d been searching for forever
找了好久好久的唱片
I played that record all night, you were right
聽了一整晚 你說的沒錯
The last song said it all
最後一首歌說明了一切
Even though it skipped a bit, it sounded better
雖然跳了針 聽起來卻更好

I never, I never, I never knew
我從不知道
The only way to listen to a record like that
只有這樣才聽得出
Is to play it through
反覆聽著

But all of this means nothing
但一切都沒有意義了
Yeah, all of this means nothing
是啊 一切都沒有意義了
All of this means nothing
一切都沒有意義了
Without you
少了你

I packed up the car and started to drive
我收拾行李 開車上路
Without a plan, with no direction
沒有計畫 沒有目的
You said it’d be good for me
你說過 我就該這樣
To break out of my daily routine
打破規律生活
You were always trying to teach some lesson
你總是想教我一些道理
You wanted, you wanted, you wanted me
你總是想要我
To feel the open road with the wind on my face
去感受寬廣的路和微風吹拂
Well, I’m here and I’m finally free
我聽了你的話 終於感受到自由

But all of this means nothing
但一切都沒有意義了
Yeah, all of this means nothing
是啊 一切都沒有意義了
All of this means nothing
一切都沒有意義了
Without you
少了你

You and I were partners in crime
我們倆共同患難
Petty thieves in a line up
像罪犯一樣
But somehow we wound up here
但不知怎麼 我們卻在這裡結束
I’m looking at a letter that I wrote to you long ago
我讀著很久以前我寫給你的信
I wouldn’t even know now where to send it
卻不知道該去往何處
It’s funny how it all poured out on paper
說來可笑 信上訴說了一切
If only I had found a way to tell you
我卻找不到方法告訴你
If only, if only, if only you
只希望你
Had found a way to love me for who I am
重新愛上這樣的我
The way that I loved you
像過去我愛你一樣

But all of this means nothing
但一切都沒有意義了
Yeah, all of this means nothing
是啊 一切都沒有意義了
All of this means nothing
一切都沒有意義了
Without you
少了你

Rachael Yamagata – Dealbreaker

Rachael Yamagata 的聲音及歌詞總是能打入人心，讓人聽著聽著變沈溺在自己的傷口裡，品味著沈澱已久的痛楚。Dealbreaker 是關於一段無法再回頭的戀情，走到某個地步，你覺得一切都不如從前，無能為力，只能放手。

分手後，只剩下舊的唱片及信件來讓你留念。你嘗試著從過去尋找蛛絲馬跡，希望自己再次成為那個值得被愛的人，但最可悲的是，即使你真的為了對方而改變了，甚至變成一個更好的人，這份愛卻已不再，一切都沒了意義。

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若你喜歡 Rachael Yamagata 的音樂，也歡迎聽聽：

二重唱 Rachael Yamagata – Duet

一而再 再而三地想起你 Rachael Yamagata – Over and Over

如象般的記憶 Rachael Yamagata – Elephants 

離開的原因 Rachael Yamagata – Reason Why 

願你幸福 Rachael Yamagata – I Wish You Love